By Joe LaGuardia
Because I love Zion, I will not keep still. Because my heart yearns for Jerusalem, I cannot remain silent. I will not stop praying for her until her righteousness shines like the dawn…O Jerusalem, I have posted watchmen on your walls; they will pray day and night, continually. Take no rest, all you who pray to the Lord” (Isaiah 62:1, 6 NLT).
I have grown up in the church assuming that restlessness was not a good thing. I have struggled with anxiety, and it comes out in various restless ways: fidgeting, pacing, reading everything in sight, moving about. I have also resisted this anxiety in various ways: prayer, contemplation, meditation, Bible Study, relaxation techniques, vacations, and television.
But it has been a long journey and, after a dissertation on spiritual formation and many silent retreats, that restlessness is still difficult to ignore and remains just under the surface of my life.
Perhaps this restlessness is not something that is all that bad, however. Maybe it is just as much a part of me as is God’s image in which I was created. People say that God doesn’t make junk, so maybe that restlessness is a part of God’s design for me.
Recently, I was reading my Bible during my devotions and stumbled on some verses in Isaiah that caught my attention (62:1-6; see above). This portion of Isaiah records a time when Israel was all but lost in exile. There was judgment, but hope was on the way. Destruction and diaspora were imminent, but God promised a new age when Israel would return to Jerusalem and live in peace among all nations.
Isaiah 62 speaks of restoration not by way of war, but by prayer. God promises to set up watchmen who will pray “continually”. It invites others to pray without rest, and stresses prayer as a way to keep God from resting too (v. 7). Restlessness was not something to avoid, but to use on behalf of interceding for God’s people and the nation, for the culmination of God’s promises to come.
This I read in the New Spirit-Filled Life Study Bible. The inspirational devotion related to this text states that Isaiah was “alert to the character and ways of God” as he takes “stock with a spirit of urgent restlessness, refusing to keep silent before God” (p. 883). Restlessness, in short, encourages a “true Spirit of prayer.”
I never imagined that my restlessness–this unyielding demon with whom I’ve wrestled my whole life–may in fact be an angel urging me to pray for others, for God to act, and for revival in my own community and church. Rather than rustling in the bed at night, perhaps I need to pray. Instead of fidgeting, I should clasp my hands and bow my head to talk to God. Rather than pacing, I should praise God for “delighting” in us and calling us his beloved (Isaiah 62:4).
It is a novel thought, and perhaps I’ll try it. Are you restless? If so, use it as fuel to pray. You too may be the watchman or watchwoman that God has called to intercede on behalf of loved ones, neighbors, and the lost in your midst.